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he sees beyond everything
sees the person i am and my failings
is sincere and makes me laugh

i would never want to break his heart

it functions

in the piano tuner of earthquakes, sexual tension is manoeuvred in such a way its suggestion became its own joke
years ago, my ex girl friend said i should see the return to the blue lagoon
the reason
sexual tension

is very interesting

many things in life that compel people to act in inexplicable ways out of inexplicable reasons are interesting too

what makes you wear a ridiculous smile

we had a rocky start of a conversation

this was not the effect of sexual tension but probably attraction tension

h said it was good to see me in the morning

me too

it was good to see you alone

so i could wave happily

and we got a little lost for words for a while

so i mentioned thunder that was sounding, god knows i'm fascinated by the sound

and h impersonated god too many times

he said

yes, my child

omg

yes, my child

omg

yes, my child

omg

it's eerie when you talk like my therapist

your therapist must be a very charming man

yeah but i said something that probably hurt him way before the upbeat turn of the conversation

his response was unexpected

i had to tell him before i slept

" hey, i have to tell you this before i sleep. i would love to go out with you no matter how old (or young) you are. it was just a stupid joke you know"

" ............ ..................................................................................................................................................... same here."