deathbed love

" the new nightly medicine tastes better and makes me drowsy.
last night, as i laid in bed i thought about things i wanna share with you.
and i fell asleep,
contented."


" Promise me you will look after your health. H."

huimin will find traces

" it was freaking funny. wasn't aware i was laying the cod-psychoanalytical trap for myself? and she could quote the title of the entry i posted. geez "

" it sounds like you are having fun. good night j. i wish i could touch your hair now."

always

you don't ask me for eternity
you don't need me to get you the moon and stars

this is the first promise
you extracted from me
in five years
not exactly romantic more like solemn
i think twice about promises
but i made you one
and this is our first promise
i do not know what to say after that

because of the weight it carries


how comforting and scary
and always a tad too sad

let's hug each other and cross the road

it is true
there is a place for you in my heart
it feels so right when you rest your head on my shoulder
it feels so right when we are close

me and the suspect

me: do you remenber the people who have loved you and made sacrifices for you or to be with you? i heard something disturbing today, doesnt matter what it was and it hit me that i should cherish

the suspect: i do. i remember many things about love and being loved. sometimes i'm silly about things like that, other times i enjoy love and loving

me: i'm not talking about cherishing you. idiot.

i'm talking about cherishing the people around me

and that was how i was totally cured of being disturbed by what i heard. what is it about the chinese saying that goes soomething like- to untie a knot you have to get the person who tied it.

bingo

just 2

i'm in love with 2 virgoans
one is much older
and the other is much younger

one is my therapist
and the other talks like my therapist

one is my therapist
and the other is my student,
ex student

one makes me cry
and the other makes me laugh
both see my failings and yet believe in the good of me

if i were deathly quiet

" i just want you to know that even if you were deathly quiet i'd still stand by you"